Tuesday, 15 December 2009

When the Devil came and asked what it would be

- I would trade a year of my life to sleep next to you for a night.
- It's not something you can trade.
- Damn, I was waiting for the Devil himself to show up now.
- He won't.
- I said a year but I meant anything that can't be measured. I would give anything.
- No, you wouldn't give anything. You would give away something that it wouldn't hurt you to loose.
- I would give something that it hurt me to loose. Money wouldn't, and the Devil wouldn't want it either... Do you think a year of my life wouldn't hurt? Can you think of anything I wouldn't give? Because I can't.
- You are not doing it anyway.
- You are talking to the guy who showed up at your place with a b&d to hang up your lamps.
- But you didn't.
- You told me not to.
- That is not relevant, the fact is you didn't.
- But I went there to do that.
- Yes, and you didn't.
- It's not fair, you told me you didn't want me to, you would have kicked me out if I had insisted. You scare me. Did you expect something like 'I am going to hang your damn lamps, like it or not'?
- Life isn't fair. You came to do something you didn't do.
- I went to do something you wouldn't let me do.
- That is not my problem, that's yours.
- If you tell me to do one thing and then you tell me not to... how do I know what you want?
- The important thing is that you don't know what you want.
- I wanted to do you favor, that's why I went.
- But you didn't, so maybe that's not what you wanted.
- I asked my mother's boyfriend for the DIY stuff, I took my ex's car and I went there, ready to do that, because you needed someone to do it. When I got there you told me you didn't want me to, and you know I'm an idiot and I will do whatever you tell me, because you know that, in the end, I only want to be with you. You have something I like too much and I don't know what it is and what really fucks me up is that I would go there now and install them with my teeth if you asked me to. But that wouldn't hurt either. I can't think of anything that would hurt and I could give in exchange of sleeping next to you, and that hurts.
- You just don't want it enough. If you did, you would think of something.
- I can't think of anything.
- So think, and when you do, let me know. Good night.

* * * quit (exception time out... Idle talk, child of an idle mind, begot of nothing but vain fantasy.) * * *

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